Each morning there is a wish from her side,She closes her eyes n just prays...that if there ever is time travel... she would travel back a decade and set somethings right. She knows that she is demanding too much..something which is unrealistic and of-course not possible as if for now. Holding the water filled bottle in her hand, she just looks at it..unscrews it n drinks it as routine. And wishes...that lord...please..I can have a day without this pain? There is somewhere a little addition to the prayer..please end this torture.But Then..She has realized and accepted...That...Pain -Is-My-Best -Friend.
Tears roll down her eyes and yet shes gathering strength for the battle that awaits for her ahead. There are certain set rules out in the battle field, and you have to revise them..recite them in your head, like the morning prayers. Be Emotion-Less, Do Not Create Attachments,Do Good, Keep A Smile On And Survive.
You go out to work, pretend to be as normal as anyone around you, function normal, when you know that this is not normal. You just force yourself..Drag yourself beyond your limits..just because you are strong and do not like sympathy.And the people around you do not get to know what a battle is going inside you.
Its just so exhausting. It hurts trying to reject feelings,everything and trying to stay neutral. It hurts a lot..trying to be normal..when I know I am not. She just sits thinking..I just wish someone could understand what I have to go through each day. There are days when I just wish to end this life long agony.I also have my threshold against pain. This physical pain of mine dies drive me crazy mentally and yet I have to smile..WHY? Sometimes when I go to hospital, the doctor refuses to take my pain serious, just because I'm smiling? Why just cant he understand this simple fact that Pain is my best friend.
Some days, when the god does grant her The Wish - She feels restless...There is something missing.Where did it go? This is not Normal.This is not me.Where did my Best Friend Go?
Pain has always meant different for everyone...But one,this,was common for all of them..That Pain Is Temporary.But for her Pain was Permanent. It had changed Her...Her life...forever. Made her A Very strong person. Nothing mattered to her anymore now. Other than surviving. Because, Only the fittest survives. And she wanted to prove that she is fit. Pain might have been an inseparable part of her, It might have been driving her crazy. Yet she was better than a thousands around her.
And With Pride She Always Said - Pain You Are My Best Friend.
Some days, when the god does grant her The Wish - She feels restless...There is something missing.Where did it go? This is not Normal.This is not me.Where did my Best Friend Go?
Pain has always meant different for everyone...But one,this,was common for all of them..That Pain Is Temporary.But for her Pain was Permanent. It had changed Her...Her life...forever. Made her A Very strong person. Nothing mattered to her anymore now. Other than surviving. Because, Only the fittest survives. And she wanted to prove that she is fit. Pain might have been an inseparable part of her, It might have been driving her crazy. Yet she was better than a thousands around her.
And With Pride She Always Said - Pain You Are My Best Friend.
